Ughhhh
Frustrated, tired and hurt.
Work…blows. I’m over tired, over worked, and underpaid!
My salon is starting to get drama, and my boss wants me to move to full time which I don’t want. She bought into the Yelp small business scam so that we can get more clients. I made a client very unhappy yesterday, and she ended up talking to my boss almost in tears because she hated her hair. Made me feel really shitty and I’m nervous beyond hell to have my boss go over and “fix” it and judge the cut I did. Ughh.
Today is also Brennen and mine’s two year anniversary. He hasn’t said anything this morning.. I gave him my paycheck so he could finish up his tattoo. I made a post on facebook but all he said was thanks and that he loves me.
I’m so over this day, and it’s not even really started. I also work target tonight and I did last night/this morning, so I’m beyond exhausted and stressed.
Sorry for the lame-o complaint post, I’m just trying hard to be positive lately and it just has been backfiring on me these past couple weeks..
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<3 (Taken with instagram)
27Starting to panic because I can’t find a babysitter for Keala tomorrow when I have to be at the salon. I don’t know what to do..
1Sometimes I feel like I’m in way too over my head. I’m getting stressed out about this whole working thing now, after a few days of not being with Keala it really got me thinking and made me feel guilty for leaving my daughter for that long.
Lately Brennen and I have been arguing a lot, we got the night together for Cinco De Mayo which was awesome and Brennen and I got our alone time which made us closer. We didn’t go out, we ended up looking at pictures of Keala and saying how much we missed her.
After that night and spending time with the two of them it went right back to stupid little fights. It’s becoming too much for me with the stress of starting two new jobs in the same week. I’m so drained, and I want things to get better but I don’t know. I was feeling so good about myself because I got out and was hired immediately within a week, prancing around with hair that I could brush through, and my ego was boosted. It felt nice. Now, I feel like the complete opposite.
At the salon I’m at now I’m so in love. The location is perfect, the decor is so amazing and I’m so lucky to have this opportunity. It’s hard because it’s all commission and I’ve been there sitting and waiting around almost filling in a 40 hour week with only $45 in my pocket from it. It took away from Keala time and it is stressful because I have these high expectations at work. The other new girl has friends that are close with the owner and she said she expects me to go from part to full time soon and that the last girl that she fired was saying how she couldn’t come in too many days of the week that she never seemed available. I have to work midday Tuesday at Target for my orientation, and my boss at the salon has me scheduled for Wednesday, Fridays, and Saturdays, but if someone requests Tuesdays I need to come in. She booked a wedding consultation for Tuesday and wanted me to do the makeup and I had to tell her I couldn’t make it because I had previous arrangements. Already making me look bad.
She also had Brennen make the business cards for the new girl and I, and they came in his shop today. He was texting me how he’ll bring them home and I texted both the girls telling them I’m coming first thing tomorrow with them. Well, he forgot them at work, so I told them to expect the cards Wednesday.. I felt bad and I feel like that’s another mark down for me, and Brennen and I got in a fight again so he went out to his work to get them when I told him not to because I don’t want to appear wishy washy with my boss and to just leave it. This is just so annoying…
I don’t know how much longer I can take the fighting.. I just cant do it anymore.
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Reppin’ the family biz @ breakfast! (Taken with instagram)
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My new home @the lotus den! Isn’t it fantastique?
21Just secured the position for Job #2
I now have a chair right around the corner from my house! I will be there a couple days a week to start, then I can get more hours as I build more clients for myself. I’m so excited!
If any of you lovely ladies are in the San Diego area and would like a great deal on getting your hair done I’m your girl! I also offer makeup services as well! Please message me if you would like more information or would like to see my portfolio!
11Just got a message on Facebook from a potential employer. I had an interview with her over a year ago for a position in her salon as a “junior stylist/assistant”. I had my heart set on this position since her salon is less than a 5 minute walk from my house, and her salon was super cute. I’m so interested but it might be hard because of my schedule with Keala and the fact I just picked up a graveyard shift job. I like the idea of working two jobs, I just don’t know how it would work out and how often she would need me at the salon. Should I start looking at daycare options if I can get a guaranteed wage from her too? I’m just kind of bummed because I wanted to start all these classes with Keala, but at the same time I could use the extra cash. Decisions decisions! It’s so random how this is all popping out of the blue randomly for me, having all these great opportunities arising all at the same time.
4Please vote for Keala!
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Entries start May 21st, but I will put this up so you know where to find her!!
2The time has come! Time to babyproof!
Things are looking bright!
This past week has brought us all sorts of good luck! It seems about time, since we’ve all been worn down to the edge and went to hell and back far too often beforehand.
Randomly I decided to start looking for positions that would work with my schedule and to start applying for little jobs here and there. Tuesday I sent in my applications, and within two hours I got a call back asking for an interview the next night at midnight. It was for a night stocking job at Target, which would be good for me because I’d go in at 11pm and get off at around 5-6am. I aced both interviews. Both of the managers I spoke to liked me, one of them had a 15 month old and I think talking about babies in the beginning was the major ice breaker. It seems too good to be true oddly enough, he’d have me working over the clothing and electronics. I’m so excited to get first dibs on the awesomely cute Harajuku Mini line, because the set up is always hard to find and when I do find it, it’s all sold out of the cute stuff! I got a call this morning saying I got the job and to come in for paperwork on Monday.
Yesterday Brennen came home from work with some of the best news, he finally got a $2 raise! We’re so proud of him! He deserved it more than anyone at his work. He’s such a hard worker and finally got recognized for all the shit he usually has to deal with. We’re so happy to be able to put a huge chunk of savings every month towards our trip, towards caring for Keala, and I can finally start paying back my school loans and medical bills, as well as a little clothing shopping splurge for me because nothing in my wardrobe fits me anymore!
I also just got an official booking for Keala! It’ll be a photoshoot for the Baby Magic company. I don’t know any details yet besides they want her to come around nap time so that she’s sleepy. Now we need to go to the bank to set up her trust fund so that the money we receive from this shoot can be put into an account that no one can touch but her when she’s 18. Yay we can put in some savings for her college!!
I can’t believe that things are finally starting to come together. I am grinning from ear to ear, it’s unbelievable!
14Keala just successfully signed ‘milk’. I can definitely get used to this. There is a light at the end of the tunnel! She’s been a monster all day and drove me to the end with frustration on both our parts. I’m glad she’s learning the signs we’ve been trying with her.
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I love that little face! (Taken with instagram)
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My flower child.
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Flower child.
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